25 Things...

1 – My feet stink. It makes me giggle.
2 – I have 2 pet rats and I couldn’t care less what you think about that.
3 – I drive like a lunatic and enjoy that about myself.
4 – I think old people shouldn’t be allowed to drive. Sorry. But it’s how I feel.
5 – I hate Beyonce with a passion. And Maroon 5 is the best band ever. Hands down. Oh that makes me think of Dashboard. They’re a close second. But yes, I hate Beyonce.
6 - I have no patience.
7 – My favorite place to be is in my bed.
8 – I cover my ears when I’m scared. I don’t know why. I just always have.
9 - I’m really afraid of the dark. Terribly afraid. Still.
10 – I cry a lot. Usually at reality television.
11 – I make stuff up a lot, and I exaggerate like crazy. And I don’t usually get caught. Unless Mich or Dani are there. They always know… Damn you both.
12 – I drink too much but don’t intend to stop any time soon. Same with cigarettes.
13 – I sing in my car. I dance sometimes too. It annoys a lot of people. Strangers usually look at me funny. But it feels good!
14 – I realized about an hour ago that I don’t have a bra on and I’m at work. I’m hoping no one will notice.
15 – I love to travel. Just got back from Puerto Rico this week. I'm wondering why my freckles multiple when I'm in the sun. I'm covered...
16 – Iced Coffee is like oxygen to me.
17 – I’m obsessed with my Mini Cooper. Obsessed.
18 - I have two tattoos that both mean a lot to me.
19 – I’m a vegetarian and have been since I was 8 years old.
20 – I’m in love, in that cheesy-smile kind of way!
21 – I die my hair completely different colors probably 4 times a year. I don’t know why.
22 – I’m super loud. I try not to be. But I just am.
23 – I too love anything pumpkin. Stole that from Mich, (( my favorite Mexican and best friend I’ll ever have ))
24 – I need to lose 20 pounds but am very excited about the Sicilian Pizza I’m having for dinner tonight.
25 – Can’t believe I made it this far… I used to have a really big freckle on my nose and I had to get it removed. But I still touch it when I’m upset. So if I’m touching my nose, it’s usually a good idea to back away slowly…

Have a good weekend!

I Fucking HATE Beyonce

I feel like the title of this says it all. I am Sasha Fierce? No. Fuck you. You aren't. You're Beyonce and you fucking irritate me to the core. Please understand, I woke up this morning in a really chipper mood. Life's great. And then i get in my car and I hear that fucking Single Ladies song come on Jamn' 94.5. No problem, I think. And I change the station to KISS 108. Except that that stupid fucking song is on there too. SO what do I do? I change it to 98.5. You wanna know what they were fucking playing? If I were a boy.... I honestly debated crashing my car into the guard rail. Every time I hear her fucking voice I want to inflict serious harm on myself and those around me. I'm not really sure why, but it's exactly what I feel. You aren't a boy, so shut the fuck up. Someone liked it AND put a ring on it, so again - PLEASE SHUT THE FUCK UP. It's like I can't get away from her. I have a REALLY hard time believing that anyone in the entire universe is not sick of her bullshit music. AND THEN she's invited to at the Inaugural Ball. Are you fucking kidding me? And to add insult to injury - she sings "AT LAST!" Etta James, one of the most fantastic vocalists of our time, is still alive and well! I'd give my fucking arm to see Etta James sing. What bullshit. Beyonce? Really Obama? Beyonce is everywhere. And I'd like to end this how I started it - I Fucking HATE Beyonce.

Thursday is Wineday

Every Thursday around this time of day my mind starts to wander... and it always ends up at Evolution Wine. Have you had it? No? Well you're missing out. It's a party in your mouth. AND on the back it says "Lucky Number 9." That's my lucky number! So it was inevitable that I would find this wine and fall in love... T minus 2 hours until I have a bottle. After all, Thursday is Wineday.

Listening to: Imogen Heap - "Headlock" and "Hide and Seek" on repeat.

Random

I sit at work in my suit sometimes and just laugh, usually out loud. If these people only knew what I do when I get home. It cracks me up. See those sexy slippers there? Yep. I just bought em. And I'm a professional? Nope. Don't think so. I wish i had my big purple slippers on right now. I also wish I could smoke ciggarettes at my desk. I know it's grosse. Get over it. I keep saying I'll quit but I dont honestly even want to. Is that bad? Any who... slow day at work. Not for lack of things to do but lack of motivation... just keep thinking about my big purple slippers. They're like having a pillow hug your feet. I'd trade my suit for those slippers any day... OH and I bought D one piece pajamas. Yeah the ones that button up the front and have feet in them. THey were intended as a joke but those PJs have made quite a few appearences. I hope some day I'm an adult. I'm just not there yet...

Listening to: Set Fire to the Third Bar - Snow Patrol. You found me - The Fray. Acoustic versions of both The Kill and From Yesterday by 30 Seconds to Mars. And daydreaming about my slippers... I'm sure there will be more later.

~b

Rant...

When I was leaving work last night I heard two people talking about how many “true loves” they’ve had and how they loved one person so much more than another. Got me thinking – I have loved so many people in my life in so many different capacities. I can’t imagine trying to quantify those experiences. I don’t think you love people more than others – you can only love them differently. Whether it be for 5 minutes or 5 years, I think I have tried to love everyone as best I could in those moments. I don’t know. But I spent my ride home thinking about it – love is love. I think it’s immeasurable. I just try to be happy for when I feel it and the good and bad that come along with it. To me, life is about doing the things you love with the people you love. Isn’t that the idea? And who’s to put parameters or guide lines on that? It really kills me when people talk about “sexual preference.” Are there people out there that think some people just wake up like “YES! Today I prefer to live an alternative life style and take on all the obstacles and ridicule that that entails.”? It’s ridiculous. Preference suggests choice. No one would choose to walk an alternative path if in fact it was their choice. There is no choice involved. You can only feel what you feel and to deny yourself that would be a massive injustice. I think your body and your mind will lead you to where you should be; Attraction is innate. I think it’s impossible to understand the history of why someone is at where they are at in their life or why they feel what they feel. Well nearly impossible. Isn’t everyone just seeking that one GREAT love you see in fairy tales? But isn’t every love great? Doesn’t everyone want to wake up every single day and feel complete? It’s just not that easy all the time. Love is not easy, and it takes a ton of effort and respect. But it is not, to me, something that can be quantified or explained. It’s not something you can restrict or understand. It’s something you feel and nurture and work at. I feel very lucky to have so much love in my life. DH Lawrence said “"Life and love are life and love, and a bunch of violets is a bunch of violets, and to drag in the idea of a point is to ruin everything. Live and let live, love and let love, flower and fade, and follow the natural curve, which flows on, pointless." Perhaps we’d all be a little better off if we stop looking for meaning in it, and if we stopped trying to put an amount on it. Maybe we need to be thankful for the ability to love and feel loved and spend less time analyzing. I don’t know. Just a few of my thoughts…

My first blog!

SO thanks a TON to Tallula Bean for introducing me to this site! I'm hoping it will really inspire me to put my words down a lot more often! I used to consider myself writer so here's to hoping this will be my resurrection. In summary - I'm a little crazy I suppose; Super emotional. Pretty digressive in my thought patterns. You couldn't really put me in any categories in any part of my life, although people will try I've come to learn. I'm pretty happy for the most part; passionate to a fault. I'm very driven and border on aggressive I've been told. :) I love my family. I love my friends and am very thankful for the ones that have stood by me through the ups and downs. I think anything in life could be solved with a glass of wine, or 5. I like my job sometimes. I'm in a great relationship that I've been in for 2 years. I'm sure D will make an appearance here every now and then. I believe a lot in reciprocity and karma. I don't know! I'm sure there will be more to learn as I go. Until next time... ~b