Rant...

When I was leaving work last night I heard two people talking about how many “true loves” they’ve had and how they loved one person so much more than another. Got me thinking – I have loved so many people in my life in so many different capacities. I can’t imagine trying to quantify those experiences. I don’t think you love people more than others – you can only love them differently. Whether it be for 5 minutes or 5 years, I think I have tried to love everyone as best I could in those moments. I don’t know. But I spent my ride home thinking about it – love is love. I think it’s immeasurable. I just try to be happy for when I feel it and the good and bad that come along with it. To me, life is about doing the things you love with the people you love. Isn’t that the idea? And who’s to put parameters or guide lines on that? It really kills me when people talk about “sexual preference.” Are there people out there that think some people just wake up like “YES! Today I prefer to live an alternative life style and take on all the obstacles and ridicule that that entails.”? It’s ridiculous. Preference suggests choice. No one would choose to walk an alternative path if in fact it was their choice. There is no choice involved. You can only feel what you feel and to deny yourself that would be a massive injustice. I think your body and your mind will lead you to where you should be; Attraction is innate. I think it’s impossible to understand the history of why someone is at where they are at in their life or why they feel what they feel. Well nearly impossible. Isn’t everyone just seeking that one GREAT love you see in fairy tales? But isn’t every love great? Doesn’t everyone want to wake up every single day and feel complete? It’s just not that easy all the time. Love is not easy, and it takes a ton of effort and respect. But it is not, to me, something that can be quantified or explained. It’s not something you can restrict or understand. It’s something you feel and nurture and work at. I feel very lucky to have so much love in my life. DH Lawrence said “"Life and love are life and love, and a bunch of violets is a bunch of violets, and to drag in the idea of a point is to ruin everything. Live and let live, love and let love, flower and fade, and follow the natural curve, which flows on, pointless." Perhaps we’d all be a little better off if we stop looking for meaning in it, and if we stopped trying to put an amount on it. Maybe we need to be thankful for the ability to love and feel loved and spend less time analyzing. I don’t know. Just a few of my thoughts…